Hi Phil, and Everyone,

I am still grieving over the loss of my Mom and Carolyn. I soaked my 
pillow last night, as I really miss my Mom a whole lot. I miss Carolyn, also.

I guess it's good to cry now and then, and I do.

I pray and that helps a whole lot along with the Busbar I take at 
night. It helps with anxiety and bad dreams.

I'm tired of feeding those night mairs. lol.

When I tell Vernon I had a night mair, he always asks me if I took my 
hay to bed with me. lol.

Jesus is so wonderful, and He never fails us.

Love,
Pat Ferguson
At 06:22 PM 3/5/2007, you wrote:
>Professionals who have studied grief, report that it takes 18 months to a
>couple of years to get to the place one is able to cope with the loss of a
>loved one.  I went through this with George, until his wife refused he call
>me any longer, but I went through it myself.  I carried the grief for way
>more than two years and, in fact, the grief itself really came out 40 years
>later.  There are grief ministries now, George and his wife went through one
>at a church they began attending, and things like that help.  Grief
>counselors generally help, too.  In my opinion, which isn't worth much, if
>you find a person who is always saying they passed on, or they passed away,
>you will be talking with a person who is either still experiencing the
>grief, which is normally buried pretty deep, or a person who is afraid of
>death itself for some reason.  The Enemy goes into high gear on this one and
>attempts to create all types of excuses.  When my mom recently died, well,
>it was, what?  Four years ago?  Anyhow, I went for several weeks with the
>thought that I should have done more, that is, been more involved.  You
>don't know my three sisters.  they run everything and I just go along for
>the ride, if, that is, I am invited at all, but that's another story.  Our
>first basset hound died shortly after my mother's death.  So what, you say,
>that's just a dog.  Put that thought aside for the moment then if you can't
>identify with it.  When we had to put our hound to sleep due to a large
>cancerous growth in his throat, see?  We even call it putting the animal to
>sleep instead of saying, well, you know.  Anyhow, the Holy Spirit used this
>experience to cause grief to surface about my mother.  I have written a
>testimony about it that's on my website that explains what I was feeling and
>the lie it generated in me.  I never would have understood it if the Lord
>had not revealed it to me.  There are ways of shortening the period of
>grief.  this does not imply that your feelings for that loved one goes away.
>I'm 55 years old and I still cry once and awhile about my dad who died 44
>years ago.  Why?  Aren't I over it?  I miss him is the true answer.  Missing
>someone you love is different than grief.  Grief, left to itself and to the
>beguilement and deception of the Enemy will destroy your life.  No, that
>doesn't mean you'll physically die but it means you will stop living.  Do
>not be deceived in to believing that the Enemy will not bother you about
>something as mundane as a loved one dying.  He will eat your lunch for a lot
>less of a reason than that.
>
>Phil.