Rhonda, Phil, I think if we're honest, we're all much the same - we hold on 
for as long as we can!  Only as we hand over time and again do we find it 
comes easier and quicker!  It's like saying sorry to a loved one.  The more 
you have done it, the quicker you do it!  (Well, that was my experience).

I don't run to Him nearly as quickly as I should on some occasions.  One 
thing I find essential is the moment you hear Him, go for it!

I'm with you all on this one!  I need help and prayer too!


--
Carol
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----- Original Message ----- 
From: "Rhonda Partain" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Tuesday, May 30, 2006 12:49 PM
Subject: Re: Attention Rhonda


>I am so glad you wrote.  Where else could I run?  Sometimes, I've wanted to
> run far away from everyone even God, but when I reach the end of  my
> strength, when it's long after midnight and I can't sleep because all 
> those
> unwanted thoughts of what-if and then-what invade my mind keeping me from
> sleep, there is only one name to call!
> It's hard sometimes, for sure.
> And I do wonder why?  But God is still God even if I ask why He is still 
> God
> even when I voice my fears!
> I'm praying for you today!
> Rhonda
>
> -----Original Message-----
> From: The Electronic Church [mailto:[log in to unmask]] On
> Behalf Of Phil Scovell
> Sent: Tuesday, May 30, 2006 1:36 AM
> To: [log in to unmask]
> Subject: Attention Rhonda
>
> Rhonda,
>
> I wasn't going to reply to your message concern Ben and all because I
> figured everybody else would.  However, I felt led to write anyhow. 
> Rhonda,
> you are one of the most amazing people I have ever meant.  Why?  I have
> watched you over the years go through problem after problem, things that
> would break and destroy the average person, and yet every single time, 
> even
> through all the discouragement and worry and concern you face, you keep
> turning back to face Jesus.  You run to Him.  You know how much He loves 
> to
> see that?  You know what it means to Him to have one of His own turn to 
> Him
> and say, You've got to be Lord of this situation because I can't do it
> myself?  Man!  I wish I was that way sooner rather than later.  Yesterday,
> the pain in my back was so bad, I was in tears as I stood in the shower
> getting ready for church.  I cried out, literally, to the Lord, and said,
> Why is my back hurting so badly?  He spoke to me in my spirit and said, 
> You
> are angry.  Get rid of it now.  I was shocked but I had to admit, He was
> right.  I immediately dumped the anger and turned it over to the Lord. 
> Then
> I began praying for the cause because often, especially when anger has 
> been
> in a person's life for many years, it has become a masking symptom of the
> lie they are believing.  It has been 48 hours, just about, and I have not
> found any place related to my anger.  This means, therefore, my anger is
> present and not past.  No, the devil didn't wrench my back out but he dead
> sure takes advantage of every situation and even if it is physical.  When 
> I
> read your message, I couldn't believe how easily you turned to the Lord.
> He's got to punch me in the back, put me in the hospital, or whack me over
> the head before I realize He is even talking to me.  You are truly bless,
> Rhonda, and I know, as I write this, you aren't feeling very blessed and I
> understand.  It is ok to cry, complain to the Lord, ask Him why, because 
> He
> isn't afraid of our questions.  The answer somehow always comes up love,
> though, so don't be surprised if He shows you something very special about
> His love for you and for Ben and maybe pretty soon.  Just listen.
>
> Phil.
>
>
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