Oh, Loving April, please know that this breaks my heart to hear this. 
I'm praying for you right now and will continue to pray for you.

Don't let anyone tear you down. You are precious and sweet and made 
out of love, full of love, and so very loving.

Love you,
Pat Ferguson
At 08:03 AM 3/12/2006, you wrote:
>I believe, Dear Brothers and Sisters, that the subtle attacks by the devil
>have become more open, but they are still subtle to many of us because we
>don't see that our minds are the target.  Wear down a person
>mentally/emotionally, and all else will follow.  Phil and Kathy are living
>examples of this.  And Angel, too!  Parents have such tough fimes in this
>life because that adversary knows that our weakest link is also our
>strongest desire.  You know, I have grown to take everybody on this list
>quite personally in to my heart, and, since I am physically ill this morning
>and unable to be away from familiar surroundings at the moment, I will spend
>my time presenting each of you to the Lord this morning.  I have been
>depressed lately to the point of just staying in my home and not really
>wanting to talk to anybody, but God is faithful, and His Word is my comfort.
>Please continue to lift me up as well.  I don't know why these awful spells
>of depression and self degradation come over me, but they are strong strong
>strong.  Well, yes, I think I do.  Every time I go to the tele-c9onference
>and I hear Ed's voice and he makes some depricating remark about me, I lose
>it and I go in to a real down-spin for the next few days.  I have resolved
>not to go there for a while till I can be strong.
>
>April
>
>
>All Powerful Redemption In Love John 3:16