Dear Loving April,

I'm praying for you and loving you very much.

May God wrap you in His precious love and comfort you in His everlasting Peace.

I'm also struggeling with emotional and physical pain.

Many lovings and squeezings for you, my dear sweet precious loving April.

Love you,
Pat Ferguson


At 06:30 AM 1/17/2006, you wrote:
>Today is interresting.  I am struggling both inside and out.  Wayne Watson
>has a song that says, "Lord, I'm growin', And I don't like it." ...  The
>feelings of change both physically and emotionally are sometimes tough at
>best to cope with.  Physically, I am in a great deal of pain because the
>doctors denied me the prescribed Darviset that seemed to help so much.  I am
>taking a milder pain pill, but it doesn't seem to relieve the pain.  In my
>chest and shoulders where I've had the catheters and PIC lines inserted for
>the I.V. therapy, there is a constant low-grage pain that worsens with humid
>weather and higher barametric pressures.  Sometimes it is so tough that I
>might find myself crying in the night.  Sometimes I can deal with it.
>
>As some of you know, I made a really foolish mistake and left my hometown
>thinking I was going to live alone in an apartment but my boyfriend moved in
>while I was hospitalized making it really hard for me to feel like I was
>living the Christ-centered life I so want to live.  While I am alone now
>here in Columbus and surrounded by a multitude of new friends, both
>believers and nonbelievers, this relationship still has a hold on me.  I
>know that God knows my heart and it is so turbulent at times that only He
>can calm it.  There are good friends in my life who serve as helpful
>sounding boards, but, I'm asking you all to covenant with me to pray for
>God's victory in this matter.
>
>Prior to my moving away from Warren, I had a counselor with whom I could
>talk on a regular basis to problem solve and balance my extremes.  I don't
>have a counselor here and I have been trying to keep myself busy by working
>or anything to avoid dealing with the myriad of issues that nag at me.  I
>have one great fortress in the Lord and He is my only fortress.  He is why I
>can write this to my fellow believers.  I am homesick for my brothers and
>sisters in Christ who now live far from me, and I haven't gotten close
>enough to the people here in Columbus to feel that I have somebody in whom
>to confide or to pray with me.  I miss the choir and I miss the Bible study.
>Yes, I read on my own, but there is a strong desire to study with others as
>I used to.
>
>Well, anyway, change is not necessarily bad, and I'm sure God will see me
>through this.  Thanks for listening, and thanks for praying.  Phil, please
>e-mail me your phone number off list and I will try to call you at a good
>time for you either Sunday, Monday, or Tuesday.  Or ... perhaps today.  OH,
>yeah, today is Tuesday.  LOL, and I have a quack attack.  The podiatrist
>will look at my foot and tell me I'm doing fine but remember to put that
>lotion on.  LOL.
>
>I love you, my brothers and sisters.
>
>April