Dear Kathy,
Please know that I'm praying for you and your family. You are so loving!
You just need lots of those lovings and squeezings right now. I know how
you are feeling.
I'm praying for you. Take comfort in knowing that Jesus loves you, and he
will always be there for you. I wish I could wipe away your tears when you
cry. I still cry very often, too. So many things in life hurt, and we just
have to give these hurts to The Lord. I have tears in my eyes as I'm
writing this.
Love you,
Pat Ferguson
At 07:48 AM 7/1/05, you wrote:
>Oh Guys,
> Life can be so wild. Last night we got a call from our son
> Matthew. He
>is being evicted from his college housing today because he is no longer
>enrolled. We knew that he would have to leave in August, but we had hoped
>that, by then, he would have a full time job and a new place to stay so
>that he could continue to make a life for himself in Grand Rapids. Well,
>he's packing everything up and storing it at a friend's house and will be
>boarding a bus for Maine this afternoon. We'll have to move the computer
>downstairs so that the office can become what it was originally intended to
>be, a fourth bedroom. Since Chris didn't get home until after midnight
>last night, he doesn't know yet, but it won't be pretty when he finds out.
> Chris has been doing okay with us this week. He had a job
> interview at
>McDonalds on Monday, but he hasn't heard anything. Actually, I'm thinking
>that he may not get the job because he was asked about his grades, which
>aren't good. I could be wrong, but I think that I heard somewhere that
>McDonalds does like to hire the better students. Anyway, Chris spends a
>lot of time with Nicki. I know from phone calls that he is getting more
>involved sexually. Brother.
> Something else happened this week that is kind of sad. Maybe
> some of you
>remember me telling a story about an old guy from our church who mistakenly
>thought that he was supposed to read four chapters of Proverbs? Well,
>anyway, the important point is that he was a dear old guy who had to move
>away from our area and move in with his daughter because he couldn't live
>independently any more. Anyway, he really missed fellow shipping at our
>church so I made him a prayer shawl as a kind of way of letting him know
>that we still love him and pray for him and miss him. I finished it on
>Tuesday, but I never got to give it to him because he was killed in a cr
>accident on Wednesday. I know that he's much better off now with Jesus,
>but I am left just wishing that I could have said goodbye.
> It's interesting that you guys are talking about memories. I
> know that
>what is going on with my kids is a result of their choices. I know that
>Greg and I have really tried to be supportive and offer good advice that
>they just don't want to take. When I was a kid, I"m the youngest of seven,
>I used to have to sit through meals listening to my parents complain about
>all the mistakes that my older siblings were making with there
>lives. Because I'm a pleaser, I had always wanted to be the one to escape
>from the litany. I wanted to be the good Christian girl with the good
>husband and good kids. Well, I really have to struggle against feeling
>like a failure right now in so many areas of my life. I get so frustrated
>because, all of a sudden, I'll just want to start crying and I can't even
>point to a direct reason why. I just have to live moment by moment.
>God bless,
>Kathy
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