That is the way I feel also.  I just didn't know how to express it so
eloquently.

Cheryl
----- Original Message -----
From: "Phil Scovell" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Tuesday, January 03, 2006 8:14 PM
Subject: Re: Ask Jesus


> Kathy,
>
> I basically said what you said in your last message once about four years
> ago.  I had come to the end of my Christian life and relationship with
> Christ, as I knew it, and I desired to go deeper and further.  I wanted to
> be where Jesus was.  Not physically, you understand, but I spiritually
> wanted to be with Him.  I was already filled with the Spirit and had
> experience many of the gifts of the spirit, yet I knew in my own spirit,
> there was more; much more.  Frankly, I did not know what I was asking that
> night in that little Wednesday Bible study in the basement of that small
> church.  I remember how I felt, though.  You wouldn't like the rest of the
> story but I got what I wanted and now I know there is even more.  No,
there
> is no price to pay because Jesus done did all that for us.  Self, self
> centeredness, and selfishness, all spiritually speaking, keeps us from
> witnessing, knowing, and even feeling His presence.  If we don't know His
> voice, the feelings of his presence are rare.  I know this is hard to
> believe but this is not pride speaking; it is dying to self.  Dying can be
> very painful until the pains and hurts are healed by the Healer.  I am
still
> struggling with my own question, too, Kathy, so don't feel bad.  I have a
> strange feeling that the answer is the same for everyone of us but I don't
> know what that might be yet.  I want to know, however.  I'll explain why
> later.
>
> Phil.
>