Chris,

I'm praying for you and will continue to do so.

Come up on our Prayer and Praise tonight at 9PM CST and let us pray for
you. Anyone and everyone is welcome to come up on the conference line.

Just call 619-345-3000 Then press 2, and then when it asks for the number,
just press 1844 and pound. If you are the first one in the room, please
wait for others to enter the room.

Hope to see you all there tonight.

Mike Canady is a great prayer leader and a great teacher as well.

On Thursday nights at 8 PM CST we have our Bible Study with Enoch Williams.
He is excellent, and we are in the book of Genesis.

See you all tonight.

Love and Blessings,
Pat Ferguson


At 07:20 PM 2/11/05, you wrote:
>I only half way know why, but not totally, but for some reason, I'm feeling
>majorly depressed.  I don't even know of sad, as I said in the subject even
>totally fits.  I guess more anger and hurt would describe it better.  For
>one, I'm really hurt as I believe I may have just majorly made a dear friend
>of mine somewhat angry.  Well, OK, maybe not even angry, but at least
>irritated.  I just don't get why so many people lately have been slamming
>down on me, sota speak, more so than usual.  I'm doing my best to be
>everyone's friend, but appaerently to some, not all, but some, it's not
>adiquit enough of a try.  It was about this time 4 years ago that Hope
>stopped speaking to me... I've told most of you all about her, and my
>friends all who know her have told me, that they can't see why I am holding
>such shame and anguish inside still after four years.  The truth though is,
>the more and more time that goes by, the more and more badly it hurts.  I
>mean I feel like some wildabeat or something.  Everyone says it's not my
>falt, but I may know that in my head, but I can't convince my heart of it.
>I can't even pray about it as every time I do I literally get so sick that I
>up chuck.  Yes, I mean it, that's being very literal.  It devastates me
>literally that badly.  So, there's that, then there's my thoughts, which
>most if not all yall know about...  Then too, the fact that I can't get in
>touch with my cousin on the phone and I'm worried sick about her for some
>bazaar reason.  I know she's fine and I shouldn't be...  Talk about being
>paranoid!  Bottome lined point, is, I'm overwhelmingly depressed and lonely
>right now.  Yes, Kristin has helped having her here some, don't get me
>wrong, but with her level of comprehention, it's difficult for her to take
>all this in and total relate and understand how to best help.  Yes, I know
>you all will pray, but really if any of you all would not mind it, could
>someone of you all get with me off list, and send me your number.  I just
>need to talk with someone and get some of this off my chest.  Even if it
>were just half an hour of us talking to an hour at most.  I have long
>distance, so don't you all worry about that.
>
>My personal e-mail address is as follows:
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>If you are scared that your number may get intercepted along the way, and
>you wanna be more secure about it, then e-0mail me on my own personal e-mail
>server.  That address is:
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>I'd rather you all use the Earthlink address though if possible as it's
>easier for me to check.
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>
>Chris.