pat, I do need to talk, bigtime, but it's business hours, and even though I
don't know how long i can hold on, with this depression, I don't want to
interupt your job.


Chris.


----- Original Message -----
From: "Pat Ferguson" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Friday, November 05, 2004 10:45 AM
Subject: Re: pray that I don't get fired from work


> Chris,
>
> Please know that I'm praying for you and your job situation.
>
> I'm also praying for you and Kristin.
>
> If you need to talk, please feel free to call me.
>
> Don't forget, you are loving!
>
> Love and Blessings,
> Pat Ferguson
> At 05:46 AM 11/5/04, you wrote:
>>Basicly, subject says it all.  My doctor has put me on a new
>>antidepressant
>>medicine called Risperdol, and it's taking a few days to get in my
>>bloodstream.  Thus, it's kind of whacking me out so to speak.  Kristin
>>went
>>on to work, but 1, she's gonna be all boo hoo hoo, as she always is when
>>I'm
>>not constantly by her side, which I must say, is rediculous, not to
>>mention
>>aggervating as heck.  I don't have anything against her, but I wish in
>>that
>>respect, she'd grow up.  I stayed home.  Kristin has the perscription slip
>>that she can show Carolyn, my superviser, however, she's said that if I
>>missed any more full days, I'd have to requalify, possibly even for
>>another
>>job altogether.  I think that i made mention a while back to you all, that
>>I
>>was forced into this job in the first manor.  I'm half way tempted to say,
>>if they can't accept a medical problem as a valid absence, then I see  no
>>point in working for them anymore at all, however, this is all we've got.
>>We can't live off of SSI making only around 1000 a month.  If I'm
>>terminated, it's going  to be living hell between my parents, her parents,
>>my grandparents, and our job here.  I've never been scared to the point of
>>frightened over work, however, now, I am.  I cannot! afford to lose this
>>job.  I've tried and tried to set up my own business with Service123.net,
>>and done absolutely no good.  I don't see how these other companies who
>>work
>>out of home, and I will not quote names, can make it, yet we can't.  it
>>almost not only makes me jealous of them, but also quite angry, not at
>>them,
>>as people, or a company, but more angry at God for not giving me a decent
>>job I love, as well as angry at myself.  I feel I'm not being a fair
>>husband
>>to Kristin by not going in today, but what was I supposed to do, ya know/
>>I
>>mean, a man's gotta do, what a man's gotta do!  i'm really trying; what
>>more
>>can be asked.  I just have the really weery feeling that my job's over
>>today, and that scares me deeply.  Maybe I should call Agetha, my other
>>superviser, and ask her what to do.  I do need prayer though, as this is
>>bothering me more than you all could ever know.  Plus, with Kristin and i
>>trying to have kids, and the fact that she could be pregnant already,
>>doubtfully, but maybe, that's not cool if I lose my job, or she does one,
>>or
>>both, in worst case senario.
>>
>>What do we do!
>>
>>
>>Chris.