OK, then why is everyone accusing me be it publicly or not, for reading
things, or studying things that are Satanic like quote:  science fiction,
and then, also, let me ask you why on earth when I do bring up topics, which
is rare, only you and maybe 4 or 5 at the very most others respond, and it
is the same group always.  just say it...  My topics are quite silly at
times.  Go on...  I know it, you can say it, i can take it as I know already
in my heart you think it...  mightas well get it out so it can be delt
with...  Wanna know why I hardly post ever on my own, if even ever at all
period?  It's cause I know my opinions don't count...  i've stated them,
what do yall do, you accuse me of wanting to hurt a particular range of
people:  (no comments)  You scream at me saying you're gonna call my church
if you find out where I'm going, just so that no one is in harm, when i'm
not gonna do anything firstly, you all have constantly said, if I don't like
to hear you all saying I'm wrong then, don't talk... quote, unquote:
Shelly?  OK, what does that imply to me...  Think about it guys...  This
doesn't take more than a styrefome head to figure out, and you all are
smarter than that...

That's almost as if you're saying, well, you are wrong always so if you
don't wanna hear me tell you that, then shut up, to put it more precisely
yet, rudely.  I've tried? and I've tried? and I've tried? and tried, to be
friends to all of you...  Some of you all, I could never repay if I tried
for your sincere friendship.  I'm not quoting names, so don't you dare even
ask me.  Yet must of you, time? after time? again, have done nothing but
rejected every single comment I make...  So what else is new...  Again, I'm
greatful for the extreme few of you who are true friends, and for those of
you who are, there's not any need for you to ask, as you'll know it if you
are... Trust me...

To the one member who called me tonight, and again no names to be said.
Thank you!  I cannot tell you what that meant to me...  however some of you
all have promised you'd call, and don't, thus taking away a lot of my trust
in you, etc.

I'm not gonna unsubscribe yet, and I probably more than likely won't period,
however, the thought is somewhat on mind...

i will say htis though:

Don't ask for my opinions, or for me to write up a topic ever again.  I
won't.  if you don't like that attitude?  Then I'm sorry, but put yourself
in my shoes.  Then take a deep breath, sit back, and look over the last year
of 2003 of all the flames that were brought up due to things I've done or
said:  OK, so maybe I'm a jerk.  Out with it!  The worst thing is to think
that and not say it to my face.

I'll openly be blunt, yet honestly polite to say not quoting names, but yes,
I do feel that there are some major jerks on this list.  Again, i won't
quote names.  That's totally! inappropriate, so I'll leave that comment at
that...  All I do know is that time and time again, I've tried, and I always
fail you all's expectations.  I can't do anything more, nor will I.  I
finally give up, and say I can't, nor will, take it any longer.  you all
will! treat me with more respect, case closed.  Call me demanding?  i'm
sorry?  But by now you all know my personality.  You tick me off, you're
gonna know it.  I'll say no more than if any of you all wanna write me,
unless an apology, the mail will be perged and discarded.


Chris.