Brad,

Thanks much. I do appreciate what you said and you are correct.

The Lord has a strong hold on me today, and I just hope e also has astrong
hold on my unloving synthesizer. lol.

Love and Blessings,
Pat Ferguson who can out-type this synthesizer any day of the week. lol
At 05:14 PM 6/2/04, you wrote:
>Pat,
>
>Check out the Psalms, David wasn't exactly a happy camper many times. No
>you are not possessed so we won't be calling you Poltergeist Pat anytime
>soon. Resist the enemy and he will flee the word says, which is what you
>did when he tossed the pills in your thoughts. This is why it is so
>important for us to rely on faith and not feelings. Feelings and emotions
>will run us all over the map like a Disney roller coaster, while
>faith  holds the measure for a true and straight path which Christ being
>the center of that faith. The enemy tends to like to pile up stuff in our
>lives, to tell us things like... See/ Another thing gone wrong... what's
>wrong with you anyway? But he certainly doesn't like to toss in stuff like
>we've woke up breathing today and can spend another day loving our mates,
>others around us, enjoying God's creation, and helping others. He tries to
>get us down with the things that are only temporary of this world. If we
>latch on to that depression he gives, we will live with glasses painted of
>black deppression, but if we live with glasses painted of good report, and
>uplifting thoughts worth thinking about and pondering on, we live life much
>differently.
>
>Brad
>
>
>
>Pat Ferguson wrote:
> >Phil,
> >
> >Thanks for this. I'm afraide I must agree with you, even though I hate to
> >admit that Monday night of this week, something happened to me.
> >
> >I was laying in bed crying, and I have been struggling with many things, as
> >I have been for the past few weeks. Something told me that I wasn't loving,
> >and that I was a bad person, and that no one loved me. Something even told
> >me to go and take a bunch of EllaVille to end it all. I was feeling pretty
> >horrible. Of course, I did not do that. I know that it was a demon telling
> >me this, and I even know that it was a demon that caused some things to
> >happen, and caused me to react in the way I have with some situations.
> >
> >I think some times when Satan knows we are trying to keep a closer walk
> >with Jesus, He loves to get his nose in our lives, and attack us. I believe
> >this is what has been happening to me.
> >
> >Phil, could it be that I'm possessed with demons? I sure hope not.
> >
> >I love The Lord with all my heart, and I was doing soooooooooooo good,
> >until a few weeks ago and things happened, and depression really set in.
> >
> >I've been way too emotional lately, everything makes me cry, and I don't
> >like it.
> >
> >God Bless you all.
> >
> >Love,
> >Pat Ferguson
> >
> >At 10:43 PM 6/1/04, you wrote:
> > >      I know this isn't widely accepted, and most certainly not
> > >easily accepted by most Christians, but demons do talk to us as
> > >Christians.  Worse than this, they can actually put their
> > >feelings upon us and speak in the first person.  This, of course,
> > >makes us immediately think we have said it or we have felt it.  As
> > >I said, most Christian find this difficult, if not down right
> > >impossible, to believe.   they jump up and down and demand I show
> > >them in the Bible where this is true and sometimes I am called a
> > >heretic, a false teacher, and only the Lord knows what they say
> > >when I can't hear them.  Regardless, it is true and if you choose
> > >not to believe it is possible, then God bless you anyway.  when it
> > >happens to you, however, don't forget where you heard it and what
> > >you heard about it so you can Scripturally deal with it.
> > >
> > >      I am bringing this up right now because, in recent days, I
> > >have had demons speak to me twice in the first person and even
> > >attempt, in one case, to put their feelings upon me to confirm
> > >what they said was true.  After all, if it feels true, it has to
> > >be true.  Right?  Wrong.  Anyhow, here are the two separate
> > >experiences I want to share with you.  Just in case it happens to
> > >you, of course, some day a hundred years from now or something
> > >like that.
> > >
> > >      A couple of weeks ago, I wasn't doing anything in particular
> > >except for thinking about something in my life.  I suddenly heard
> > >in my thoughts, "I'm a drunk."  Not, "You are a drunk," but, "I am
> > >a drunk."  I almost laughed out loud.  Why?  Because not only am I
> > >not a drunk but even has a teenager, I hated the taste of
> > >alcohol.  Twice, in my life, I tried drinking beer; just plain
> > >old beer.  I got about a half a can down before handing it to a
> > >friend to finish.  So, in my entire life time, I probably haven't
> > >had enough alcoholic beverage to even fill one beer can.  Now
> > >LSD, marijuana, hash, speed, and other related drugs is a
> > >different story.  Booze, I hated.  I didn't even like wine, come
> > >to think of it, but my point should be clear by now; I hate
> > >anything alcoholic.
> > >
> > >      So, here I am, thinking about something totally unrelated to
> > >booze, and I hear in my thoughts, "I am a drunk."  Sure I am.  So
> > >what was the source of this lie?  I immediately began looking,
> > >through prayer of course, for the source.  I knew, without
> > >question, it was demonic, but why did a demon take that particular
> > >time to try and plant a lie in the thought stream of my daily
> > >life.  The answer would take more than a book to explain.  My
> > >point is that a demon did speak those words in my thoughts to try
> > >and gain a foothold in my life through an implanted lie.
> > >Furthermore, he spoke in the first person to make me think I was
> > >the one who thought it.
> > >
> > >      Now, just before writing this article, it happened again but
> > >with a different theme.  I was seated at my desk doing little of
> > >nothing, other than reading email, and when I replied and sent the
> > >message off, suddenly, in my stream of consciousness, I heard, and
> > >felt, "I hate myself."  Wow.  That could be true.  Maybe I do hate
> > >myself.  I'm such a terrible person, a loser, and a failure.
> > >Maybe I really do hate myself.  Nope, I didn't go that route of
> > >thinking.  Why?  I am learning not everything that pops into my
> > >thought life is of God or even of me.
> > >
> > >      First of all, in this case, I knew I did not hate myself.
> > >Why should I?  God has revealed so many wonderful things to me and
> > >how He is my Father and how He spends time with me and how He
> > >hears and answers my prayers.  So why should I remotely consider
> > >the possibility that I hate myself when God loves me.  Of course,
> > >I am perfectly aware that others may indeed hate me and that it
> > >could have been a demonic influence associated with that person.
> > >After all, I pray with many people and some of them have demonic
> > >activity all around them.
> > >
> > >      Then it hit me.  I didn't say it; a demon said it in the
> > >first person to try and deceive me into thinking I said it so it
> > >must be true.  Well, it isn't true; I don't hate myself.  so what
> > >does a person do in such a case?  He, or she, takes every thought
> > >captive.
> > >
> > >      Here is what I did.  I stopped typing and prayed.  Since I
> > >was alone, I prayed out loud and I said these words.  "In the name
> > >of the True Lord Jesus Christ, I call to attention the demon that
> > >just said, "I hate myself," and tried putting the emotional
> > >feelings on me to make me think it was true.  Furthermore, I call
> > >to attention all those under your authority for the same reason.
> > >Note.  You do this because it is rare that only one demon is
> > >hanging around and pestering you.  They almost always have a bunch
> > >of buddies with them to back up their wickedness.  Praying in this
> > >manner, you lump them all together and you aren't stuck dealing
> > >with demon after demon until you get rid of all of them.  So back
> > >to my prayer.
> > >
> > >      Once I had called them all to attention in the name of the
> > >True Lord Jesus Christ, I then say, "I bind your words spoken
> > >against me and strip you of your armor and weapons and place the
> > >blood of Jesus Christ upon them.  I now bind you all together as
> > >one and I turn you over to the Chief Shepherd, the True Lord Jesus
> > >Christ, and I command you to leave and to go right now to the
> > >place the True Lord Jesus Christ wants you to go.  Be gone, now,
> > >in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ.
> > >
> > >      What do you suppose happened immediately following this
> > >prayer?  The feeling of worthlessness vanished.  Was it all in my
> > >mind?  Was I just making all this up or are there really demons
> > >sent to try and deceive us?  You decide because I already know the
> > >truth and the truth has set me free.
> > >
> > >Phil.
> > >
> > >
> > >I Flew Kites With Jesus
> > >www.SafePlaceFellowship.com
>
>Brad
>
>    Manage conflict instead of avoiding it.  Conflict is often a necessary
>step into unity