Dear Pat,
Perhaps the Lord would have you just let go of your Mom and the family
members who reject you and your loving ways. I learned just recently that
one cannot bring about a change in the heart attitude of a loved one, even
by loving them. Only God can make the change in them that you think you
want to see. I know this may seem like hard counsel, but because you
belong to Jesus, He will supply you with what you may need in order to back
off from the situations which hurt you so much. I pray you will allow Him
to enable you, and to remove the pain you are suffering.
In His Love,
Helen
Earlier, Pat Ferguson wrote:
>Dear Helen, and Everyone,
>
>Oh Loving Helen, you are so sweet! Your words are from your heart, and from
>Jesus. They comfort me.
>
>You guys, do you know my Mother put me in a Baby home for 5 years because
>she couldn't deal with me with my blindness. I stayed with all kinds of
>people when I was little before I was five when they brought me home that
>summer before I was taken to the Oregon State School for the Blind. I never
>felt a part of my family and I really still don't. It hurts me.
>
>When she said those horrible things to me on Saturday night, I wanted to
>tell her that I would quit calling people Loving, if she would quit smoking
>and drinking, but I did not say that to her.
>
>My love is from The Lord, and I'll never stop telling people they are
>loving. I'll never stop calling people loving, either. If I do that, I will
>be disobeying Jesus. It's because Jesus that this love exists, not because
>of me. I'm not capable of loving that much, but through Our Lord, Jesus
>Christ, we can do all things. I love to love people as God wants me to. I
>won't let anyone take that love away from me.
>
>I learned how to love when I was at the School for the Blind. We were loved
>a whole lot. Yes, we were punished when we did wrong, but just ask Cecily
>and Paulette, we were also loved, and we were squeezed.
>
>So, guys, I'm sending this with all the love in my heart and you are all
>Loving! Because God made you that way.
>
>Am I crazy? Probably yes. I'm crazy for Jesus, and I don't care what anyone
>thinks.
>
>Love and Blessings,
>Pat Ferguson
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