Lelia, I really appreciate it very much.
Sandy
----- Original Message -----
From: "lelia" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Wednesday, February 18, 2004 7:21 AM
Subject: Re: Gretchen and drug rehab


> Hi Phil, and Sandy, I can not say I'm a parent but I am a sister to my
Linda
> and I have always thought of her as my Linda, I have truly cried and
prayed
> and still do.  I love her as you love your daughter.  I know we all wish
> things could be different, I don't know about you two but even I just the
> big sister think what could I have done differently.  How could I have
made
> her see the love we all feel for her.  But I know I did the best I could.
> and I also know you and Sandy have done the best you could and are still.
> Phil, and Sandy, I love you both and I truly do know what you are going
> through not as a parent, but as a sister who hurts for her sister her
little
> sister.  I know you know you have the Lord through all of this but please
> please don't think your alone wwhen it comes to friends who have and or
know
> or been through what your going through in your souls.
>
> Lelia
>
>
> ----- Original Message -----
> From: "Phil Scovell" <[log in to unmask]>
> To: <[log in to unmask]>
> Sent: Tuesday, February 17, 2004 10:22 PM
> Subject: Re: Gretchen and drug rehab
>
>
> > Thanks Lelia.  Well, if Gretchen doesn't do well in the rehab, prison is
> > next.  Sandy and I were in the living room Saturday night and talking
> about
> > Gretchen.  I had felt a spiritual attack coming for two or three days.
> > Gretchen, and her situation, was triggering some of it and I knew that
but
> > when it is your own daughter, you can't stop your feelings.  Sandy and I
> > both got to crying about and I felt what I am about to say before I said
> it.
> > I said, I would go to jail for her if she could go free.  I know now,
that
> > it was the Spirit of Christ speaking out of my own spirit and what I was
> > feeling was what the Lord feels for Gretchen, too.  An intercessor
doesn't
> > usually get to pick what they want to feel.  I have been praying for
> people
> > many different times in the last 19 years that I have been an
intercessor,
> > and sometimes I suddenly begin feeling what they are feeling.  I have
felt
> > deep heart ache and brokenness, I have felt fear and anxiety, I have
felt
> > loneliness and abandonment once, and thank God it was only once, the
anger
> > of God.  I was praying for a church and a Christian school here in
Denver.
> > I felt the anger of the Lord suddenly slam into me from behind me with
> such
> > force, it nearly knocked me out of my chair.  I felt like someone picked
> me
> > up from behind like I was a rag doll and shook me.  I yelled in my
prayer
> so
> > loudly, my voice was hoarse for four days.  I could not have turned off
> what
> > the Lord was saying to this pastor and church and Christian school and
> > school principal if you would have offered me a million dollars.  Never
> have
> > I felt the power of God so severely.  this church, by the way, had
shifted
> > the focus of their ministry from being a ministry to being like a
business
> > and a secular school and God was mad.  Two weeks later, the church and
> > school were shut down by Jefferson county health department because they
> had
> > an infestation of head lice.  I'm not making this up.  Everybody in my
> > living room to this day, that heard me praying said they had no doubt
the
> > Lord was trying to get this church's attention.  I have posted on here a
> > letter once I wrote to a friend to tell him something that happened when
I
> > was praying for him during a Wednesday night prayer meeting at the
little
> > church we were attending.  The weight of this man's brokenness and
sorrow
> > was so heavy when it came upon me, I almost fell out of the pew.  I half
> > fell forward and fell face down in the middle of the pews and I felt
this
> > man's pain so strongerly and I felt the war going on inside of him so
> > severely, I literally beat the floor.  I began coughing and gagging and
> > choking and I honestly thought I was going to throw up.  I felt I was
> > coughing up all the pain he had carried for his entire life.  Near the
> end,
> > I was praying so loud, I suddenly realized I was saying, screaming was
> more
> > like it, Somebody call him son, call him son, somebody call him son.  I
> was
> > physical exhausted when it was over and I could hardly talk for two
days.
> > After the service, maybe 6 or 8 people were there, an elderly woman who
> knew
> > this man and his wife personally for many years came over and talked
very
> > quietly to me and said.  You didn't know what you were doing but you hit
> the
> > nail right on the head.  Jim had a horrible childhood and his father
never
> > cared for him.  She said, his wife has told me about how his father
never
> > cared for him.  So, I said all that to once again say, an intercessor
does
> > not get to pick and choose what they pray about or what they feel.
> >
> > Phil.
> >