Jenifer,
I am sorry about your dad and grief is a very unusual thing and can cause a
lot of other problems we aren't even aware of at the time. I would be happy
to talk and pray with you but as Carol said, she is available also if you
prefer talking to another lady. You just have some things that need to be
healed in your emotions. The Lord can, and will, answer all of your
questions.
Phil.