edison wrote:
>But how do you REALLY feel about it, Ken?
>
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Michael,
Why do I always get the hard questions?
I don't join the cheats and I don't sleep soundly. The dream I had last
night was a killer. First time I have every really paid attention to a
child incinerating themselves. I don't know what that was about. Figure
if I put it on BP that Leland might jump in with an interpretation.
There is a hurricane coming up the coast and I have a parapet wall
opened on a bank in Southampton -- prime ocean exposure -- I'd like to
see it put back together before the high winds come up. I'll be hoisting
and carrying the bricks as well as everyone else on the team. I'm not
too much concerned about bigness or smallness right now. As for that I
was made an offer recently to be bigger than I have ever been in bigness
and I turned it down flat with a smile. I have a contract with my son,
as my current business partner, and I need to honor it. I make other
contracts, formal and informal and I intend to honor them the best I am
able.
Since I rarely eat fancy meals, mostly rice, beans and green peppers,
and am concerned to keep the one vehicle running long enough to double
as family car and workshop I'm not sure how many more fancy meals I
would need or how many fancy vehicles I would try to drive at once. A
new and roadworthy van would be nice -- but right now where it is at is
my son is over with our neighbors the local stock car team (they placed
4th in their division) standing outside in the rain under tarps
discussing the work they are doing on the car he got from his
grandmother that they are fixing up in exchange for the bus that we gave
them so they could haul their car to the track and have a mobile
clubhouse in the pits -- we need another vehicle right now real bad and
it is not fancy. I would just be happy if I had assurance that my family
and associates were able to have safe vehicles, a safe home, food,
health insurance and equal parts of happiness and sanity in their lives.
It is difficult to maintain quality of life when you are dealing with
cheats, liars and thieves. Been there, done that, not interested. It is
a tough thing but I have always tried to honor my word. Some days I wish
the hell I did not have to. Some days I wonder just what the hell they
think I was saying when I gave my word. And then there have been times
when I have been restrained and not able to keep my word the way I
wanted to keep it -- for those times I lose sleep as well. I expect to
be around the next twenty years doing what I am doing and I don't see
how if I get in the habit of breaking my word that I will be able to get
very much better at it. Actually, you cause me to think... it is not
that I want more food or more fancy cars... I am obsessive... what I
really want is to do the most damned interesting work in histo presto
that I can muster and to do it with my friends and associates and do a
hell of a good job of it. I'm greedy that way. Every project nearly well
done makes me happy. I also want to write funny stories and buy more
books... but that is a separate issue.
I return to the statement that I do not want to work with, for, around,
or anywhere near people that I do not like. I am fortunate that I tend
to like a variety of people. Contrary to the fact that some have
expressed that my attitude may not be a very realistic position in
business I have to say that I am finding it incredibly rewarding and
entertaining.
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